Who is this Azri Redza?

The title came from the song “On The Other Side” by The Strokes. If you ever felt like hating, being hated or just felt negative, it’s a good song to hear.

Tomorrow, I will be registering for college, and once again I manage to screw up the it-wont-be screwed-up-if you had-done-it-earlier documents. Well, the financial form actually, to be specific.

My mom got so mad when she knew I haven’t completed like, 20% more of the forms. I’ve been through a lot of situations like this, and I could only blame myself for this.

I brought this upon myself. IF ONLY I hadn’t wasted so much time reading manga, and doing some f-ing unprofitable stuffs, maybe I won’t end up being depressed like always, after a harsh scolding from my parents.

Truth be told, I really hate myself for procrastinating, and I have a long history of it which resulted in some motherf-ing situations (like getting kicked from university).

Sometimes, I wonder why am I like this. Why do I not take things seriously? Why can’t I make my parents happy? The why questions often haunts me more often when I am scolded by my parents.

Why do I feel so useless? I’m so sad right now, I feel like ki…sigh, never mind.

I hope something good would turn up for me. Because I know, good deeds are repaid by good things in life.